Archive for June, 2008

The first few weeks/months after the arrival of a new baby are always insane. The roller coaster ride of hormones are enough to send me reeling. I am dreading this part of this trip more than anyone should. I’m happy being stable, even if it’s on the grumpy side. I keep joking that I’m going to ask for IV psychotropics or whatever they’re called these days.

I dread the surgery like mad. I hate the anxiety that the spinal gives me and the dread that fills me once they separate me from my husband. I don’t get what the big deal is, I’d certainly be more still and composed about the whole thing if they’d let him support me. Poor guy, I feel bad for him. I start to get all insane and panic when he gets out of my sight afterwards. I’m hoping the meds will help with that this time.

Three days until Eva arrives into our lives to make whatever mark she so chooses. We are both excited and daunted at expanding to such a large family. She is most welcome and we are so excited to meet her. I don’t dread her at all, just the post-partum fun times ahead.


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I thought maybe, just maybe, these contractions might at least be thinning my cervix but it appears fat or not, I don’t get to pop babies out the natural way. I mean, I doubt I’d have been able to anyway after three previous c-sections but wouldn’t it be cool to at least pretend that I could possibly do a little dilating? Today was my 38 wk appointment with the doctor, he did the swab and cervix check. I guess she’s still breech and hanging out in the ribcage. 13 days until Eva arrives on the scene, I’m sure she’ll be ecstatic.

It was a good appointment otherwise, nothing interesting other than a bit of borderline anemia. Pretty good for someone just 10 months post-RNY and 9 months pregnant… Hi, I’m an idiot.

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Shower Photos

It wasn’t as bad as I feared. It turned out the younger set didn’t have to mingle with the older ones. I should have known it would work out. I have to show off the cake though. My best friend/hostess’ boss made it after looking at a picture from the good ol’ internets. She did a great job and it tasted really good, too!



Very sweet.

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My husband’s first cousin, Carolyn, was killed in a car accident last Friday night. She was hit by a motorcycle going over 100 mph. The idea is that the man on the motorcycle was probably intoxicated. Neither of them survived, he t-boned her side of the car. She leaves behind a young son and a devastated family so any good thoughts or prayers for them would be appreciated.

I hate the thought of drunk drivers, if you want to kill yourself go ahead but don’t take other people with you out of stupidity. I can’t imagine what her mother, our aunt, is going through. My grandma says almost every day that losing your child is one of the worst nightmares you can live through. Friday will be eight years since my mother died.

It’s tragic, brings forward the old cliche that we have to live life to the fullest every day because we never know what tomorrow will bring.

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